Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Pale Skin

not just me being white, like Caucasian, but I am the white of the white,
I burn upon just going outside without sunblock, I worked today and had just gotten
back from a festival. I had burned, and am burned from today to. I burn a ton,
this is why I don't like summer. I have to apply burn medicine and moisterizer to
repair the skin damage. I try to be kind to my skin. :P
burned today arg.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Monday, June 10, 2013

3 Good Cold Drinks for 1, in bottles!

My Iced Mocha in a bottle :3
  • 20 oz Jones bottle, or any bottle that's 20 oz.
  • 16 oz Coffee, or 1 Starbucks VIA pack with 15 oz of water
  • 2 tsp. sugar, or sweetener of choice, if you use xylitol use serving size if you body's not used to it
  • 1 tsp. coco powder, I prefer dark chocolate powder
  • Cream, as much as you want, if using creamer add more coffee
      Mix dry ingredients together, then add coffee and cream, and shake, if in a glass stir, Ice cubes

My Iced Coco in a bottle
  • 20 oz. Milk, skim, rice dream, or whatever you want
  • 2 tsp. or more if you want it sweeter of sugar or sweetener
  • 1 tsp. Coco
  • 1/4 tsp. of vanilla or flavoring desired,
      Mix dry ingredients then add wet. Shake well, (or stir if in a glass) and let it sit for the sugar to dissolve.    enjoy with Ice or Whip cream.

20 oz Mango Lassi, in a bottle
  • 9 oz. Vanilla Yogurt
  • 4 oz. water or milk
  • 2 oz. blended mango pulp, or 1/4 cup of mango juice
  • sugar to taste
      Mix water or milk in bottle with yogurt and mango pulp or juice and sugar. enjoy!

Sunday, June 9, 2013

I will never...

  1. Have to walk into a high school for a reason that involves myself academically
  2. Have ride a school bus at 6:50 AM or 2:40 PM
  3. Have a teacher freak out about me leaving a room without a pass or permission
  4. Have to go to high school for myself
  5. Have to write a term paper for my teacher/parent
  6. Have to explain my lack of good grades to my principle/parent
  7. Have to make sure my hem line is a certain length or have the straps on my shirt be 3 fingers wide.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

If you ever

If you have ever been abused and you parents didn't know,
Tell them, today I was talking to my mom and made a reference
to that and I finally told her, now she feels like it was her fault,
and she's morning for me when it was so long ago, and I have
already forgiven that person for that,
I went through that last year, that was when I realized what happened to me.
it is good for them to know, and to know it's not their fault.

Rabbit trail
 What triggered my memory last year is a very inappropriate situation
happened 3 years ago and it gave me a flash back. I addressed this last year at age 16
and I had addressed the alone physically, I had God with me that whole time.
That is why I believe in God, that is why I am who I am now, that did
not determine who I am today, but I grew from that experience.


We have all failed at something, all done something stupid, so in the words
from Rudolf  the Red-Noised Reindeer and Sam's from The Perks of being a Wallflower.
"Welcome to the island of misfit toys."
we all have messed up and have been misunderstood, but the faults of other people is not
for us, we can stay in the valley of despair and be depression on this little island we're on or we can get over it and go to the fun places.
being weird and different is... different, but it's also fun.
there is more then not fitting in, we were not made to fit in.
there is more then that worthless gold that all you can get is those bones.

So my I say, Welcome to the Island of misfit toys, We don't fit in, but that's okay.

Saturday, June 1, 2013


Who hurt, were broken, felt alone.
Whosoever has fallen hard,
you are seen,
you aren't alone,
we are here,
we are listening.
There is no judgment, there is nothing left but to relate.